03-12-2015 Koh Lanta, Thailand
Awakening. Being awake. Balance. Living healthy, living happy. Do what makes you happy. I found a pretty good balance here in Lanta land. So I followed the omens like I promised in my last post ‘The Transition’. I found a nice place to stay for a while and a good yoga teaching job with enough spare time so I can do more than just teaching yoga. I have time for art, cuddling cats, for developing new skills and for meeting cool, interesting people.
My life on the island is pretty sweet again. I practice and teach yoga everyday. I go swimming in the ocean a lot, practice juggling and Poi and stuff. I study Thai language, I study and practice Thai massage. I’m eating healthy, but sometimes ice cream, pancakes or Thai sweets. I enjoy my peaceful and quiet home in Old Town, but sometimes I go dancing on the beach and watch incredible and inspring fire shows my friends are making there.
“Just take what you need to survive, not more and not less”
Am I helping the world in any way by living like this? Again I meet interesting people. Awaken people. People with the same urge like me; ‘make the world a better place, for us to live in.’ Talking about what is all wrong with the world helps to stay awake and to get more awaken, right? I feel that when I’m in a vibe where I see so many things wrong with the world, I want to share this feeling. I share this feeling on Facebook for example, by sharing some photo’s or video’s to make people more aware about things that happen in the world. About what we are doing to this world. The ‘funny’ thing is, if I share a picture of myself lying in a hammock with a coconut, I get over a 100 likes. If I share a video of a guy sharing money on the street that shows the greed, ego, desire, ignorance, fear and pride of the human race, I get maybe 5 or 6 likes, mostly from awaken people. The video shows how the man who lives on the street with his dog, who has nothing more than he needs, doesn’t want anything more than he needs, while the wealthy people take as much as they can, because it’s free and because they have the feeling they always need more. This is how nature survives you know. Just take what you need to survive, not more and not less. I’m not saying I think it’s a bad thing to live in luxury. We can still live in luxury, making our life comfortable, without consuming more than we need.
Why are we ignoring that? Why do we not want to see that? It’s so easy to just act like an ostrich, just dig your head in the sand, pretend that it’s not there. Changing consuming behaviour is not simple. People are used to a certain lifestyle where we take as much as we can. We are taught that we have to store, to take more, because you never know what will happen next.
I finished reading ‘The Alchemist’ a couple of months ago and I’m reading ‘The Celestine Prophecy’ right now. I’m aware that both books are fiction, but why does it feel so real? I truly believe this world is in a transition. More people get awake, or I meet more people who are awake. Anyways, more and more people see that how we are treating the world is not sustainable.
“Be the change who you want to see in the world”
A couple of weeks ago I had a discussion on Facebook on a Dutch local page of the town I grew up in. It was about the refugees who came to the town and all the preparations that needed to be done. I tried to create some consciousness there about the connection of the Universe. About how we are all one, all humans and that there is no difference in race. That it’s just something we made up. I made a mistake in this discussion when I tried to explain the law of attraction. There was a lot of fear in the town, that the refugees would cause troubles, because this happened before in other places. With this in mind I tried to explain that if you give all your energy to this fear, there is a possibility that you attract the the thing you are afraid of. I didn’t explain it very well, so it looked like I was saying that people are asking to get raped by the refugees, so that’s why it will happen. Whoops. All the attention went to this part of my elucidation. The part where I screwed up. It seems nobody got the point I tried to make and they called me a crazy hippie who is not realistic about the fact that I truly hope this world can live in peace and harmony and that we are all connected. They say I am ignorant, because I don’t want to see the problems in the world. I wish more people saw the cause of the problems in the world, without being so angry at each other. This discussion caused that I don’t feel like wasting my energy anymore, trying to make a point to people who do not want to listen.
I actually figured out that I am (again) not listening to my own advice. What I’m actually doing is putting my energy in the thought that human race is destroying the world for us to live in. If I apply the law of attraction to that, then I actually send my energy to this fear. By realising this I decided not to give my attention anymore to what is going wrong, but to what is going right instead. Let myself be inspired by people who are making changes, by people who are positive and spread love and energy. ‘Be the change who you want to see in the world’ Just like Ghandi.
I will let go of my desire to inspire people, to awaken people, to change people’s opinion. I’m not giving up on my dream to make a change in the world, but I’ll do it with a different approach. I will continue living my life like I do, sharing my yoga-love, teaching people to listen to their own body, enjoying the beauty of the world, getting inspired by the magical people, this magical place attracts and all this without feeling guilty that I’m not making a huge change yet.
“Let go of all expectations”
It’s so nice to talk about the possibilities of making a big change though. A couple of days ago I was talking to a local (½) Thai guy about being awaken and how we can make a change. He had such amazing and inspiring ideas of making a change here on the island. Wouldn’t it be great if all the longtail boats have sails instead of this big polluting motor, just like they had back in the days? I bet the tourists would love it too. Nobody likes the sound and smell of the motors and it’s such a nicer experience. Amazing idea! I can’t wait until it will unfold itself and I trust it will.
I do have so many ideas about what I want to do too, but I can’t do everything in once. I have to trust that there is a right time for everything and so I will keep on listening to the omens, the signs of the universe, my gut feeling. Let go of all expectations and just enjoy the beautiful life that I’m living right now.
I wish you all a lovely and grateful day, with just what you need.
This is the view from my home in Old Town, Koh Lanta